Month: April 2023

Passion Water

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The Seed

The chase begins, without warning, without a band, without a flag. You drag yourself through the motions of high school, jump into an investment that would be your college degree, or start whatever mindless job is closest to your path, with little to no understanding of what you really want out of life. Obviously because at that age you have barely lived.. and so you lean on the experiences you have had to help guide your decision making for the future. Whether it be you know how to wash cars, so you open a carwash.. or you liked helping your uncle build a shed, so you jump into construction. Or maybe you were ill as a child, and the doctors quite literally saved your life, so you dive into medical field. Regardless, you are in a rush for your independence, and so you are rushed into deciding who and how you are going to be at a young age. Sure you meet people, you grow with experience, but all of that grows off of the root of the seed that you planted when independence was manifested, and your chase begun.

From what I can tell, our problems started not with the necessity to take action, but with the intentions of the seed we chose to plant. You may have noticed, but two of those seeds were planted with the forethought of how can I make money.. we can wash cars, or we can build houses, we can learn to plumb, maybe even do electrical.. but none of these will thrive in the long term of our consciousness if all we have to water them with is a passion for helping people understand themselves..(yes it is me) Or if I am just full of “passion water” for building play houses for children.. or even spending 12 hours smoking the perfect brisket.. Whatever the case may be, in order to understand what our “passion water” is, we have to slow down, look at ourselves as if we are on a screen, and realize that all this time, we were just chasing dust.

All the mumbo jumbo

It all looks pretty silly from the outside in. Meditating that is.. Maybe even intimidating? Mostly because its so different from our perpetually rushed time clocks and schedules, school time, lunch time, break time, dinner time, work time, day time, night time, all of them demanding the next societally placed action for the next move to bring us closer to the next minute to get us to the next thing and the next thing and the ne…. I think you get it.

Psalms 49:3

“My mouth will speak words of wisdom, the meditation of my heart will give you understanding.”

Meditation is not something taken lightly when it comes to Him. The more time you spend intentionally slowing down, is time you are intentionally spending trying to hear Him. Attempting to understand that which has been inside yourself all along. Hearing the rippling creek flow of your “passion water” as it carves out a map for you to see where you were wanting to aim all along. You see, we didn’t know what seed we should plant when that gradual integration into the chase begun, but there is hope. There is a way out.. or maybe its more like there is a way in.. Into the ground of your subconscious you can plant a new seed, and with enough meditation, and focus solely on Him, you will find yourself, how He made you, in His image.

So yea, its gonna be unfamiliar, its gonna be uncomfortable at first, but don’t let that small circumstance keep you from doing it. I dont care if its gotta be the earliest or the latest part of your day. Only that you do it, and keep doing it, and the more you do, the more you will want to. It’s a gift that keeps on giving. Bringing you closer to Him and yourself simultaneously. Oh yea and the dim lights and the yoga music.. its not just a bunch of mumbo jumbo..

ASK

I have no criteria for how or from what perspective or proper grammar insinuations that I write these little articles but I don’t care. What I do care about is that my honest and closest message to the truths of which I have found come across to you. That being said I quite literally make sure to get my mind into a Theta wave state of meditation before I ever even begin. It’s like playing an instrument for me, the more I let my mind go of what I’m trying to do the better it usually comes across, rather than it being forced into a rhythm or making due being just a little out of tune..

SO, if you’ve been so kind as to read anything that Ive wrote and you have any questions about meditation, or controlling your thoughts, or understanding your “autopilot responses.” please, ask. As I mentioned above (indirectly) my “passion water” is helping people to understand themselves better. Hence why Ive been writing these mind dumps onto this platform so that maybe just maybe, it can help someone out of a quarrel in their own mind. So, may the Lord our God bless you. May you seek Him at all times, not out of fear from discipline, but out of the enormous overwhelming and indescribable love that HE has for YOU…. YOUUU!!! You You You can’t you see?! He loves your face, your mind, your experiences, your potential, He loves everything that you can be if you only look to HIM!!!!

The Force, of worry.

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Off beat.

Why is it that even our own brains fight against us? Could it be the nature of our ancestors inscribed into our subconscious trying to warn us of a threat yet to come? Is it just our foul attempt at trying to decipher the future to keep us from harm? Or is it simply the rhythm of our internal vibrations being off beat? However we look a it, most of us continually fight a battle we didn’t volunteer for. Like we’ve been drafted into a debate with the cosmic forces of the future, wrestling with ourselves into thinking we can know the unknown.

Today I wrestled, I was having a perfectly splendid start to the day. Got my vibrations in sync (or so I thought), had my morning caffeine fix, and was tackling the obstacles that met me at work as soon as my feet stepped out of the truck. Everything seemed to be in order in my consciousness, then all it took was one conversation.. one simple short piece of banter that sent me into a valley of unknown and worry. You see, I have an issue with pride, but I convince myself I would never allow those bits of comparison to bother me. Although, after speaking with my dad about how well my brothers are doing, I was overcome with the bitterness that pride can carry. But I didn’t understand why.. because I love my brothers dearly. But something inside me let go of that security Ive found in Christ and His plan.

So why? Why was it that this doting of my father on his other boys got me all out of whack? Now I am worried about my bank account, worried about the future and my plans for my family, worried about every damn thing my mind could throw at me, and I knew it was wrong. I knew that I should be happy they are doing so well, but there was one thing in the way of me sharing that same joy with my father. Pride. Pride pride pride. Oh how strong are the vibrations of the subconscious trait we have named, pride. So strong in fact, that they threw me off beat.

Open it.

The same day of these events, although I was having a good morning, I didn’t get to the one thing that I really was being beckoned to do, simply read a few pages of my Bible. But like I said, I was met with tasks as soon as I pulled onto the lot, along with not waking up early enough to make time to read before I left. So there I was, unbalanced and worrying about my own financial and spiritual well being. All because of the pride that was in my way. But one thing that kept coming to mind was not getting to read my bible, thats when I set aside all the tasks aside and went to the truck. The Book calling to me more than I to it. All I had to do, was open it.

Exodus 14:15 NKJV

And the Lord said to Moses, “Why do you cry to me? Tell the children of Israel to go forward. But lift up your rod, and stretch out your hand over the sea and divide it.”

My wife and I have been working towards possibly the biggest event of our lives thus far. We have prayed, we have planned, we have thought and thought about how were going to make money, what our end goals are, etc etc. and I have told myself that I’m good, I have faith in His plan, just as the Israelites had been witness to His miracles I should’ve known to have faith through my insecurity. But again I wasn’t strong enough to overcome the obstacles in my own mind. It took Him, it took His word, just when I look to Him again for reassurance, He has to remind me like the child that I am, to “stop crying to Me.” You know the direction you’ve prayed about, you’ve sought and found My peace, now stop questioning My plan. Raise your rod and stretch your faith over the sea of your worry to divide it. But do not be afraid, do not worry, and if you must.. seek me, don’t just look at your closed Bible, open it. He would rather this, than for you to continue to wallow in your own self made turmoil. But He wants you to pick up your rod, have more faith.

Waves

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So. Many. Waves. An endless and infinite energy in motion that cannot cease to exist and yet nothing can exist with its ceasing. And so is our own physical and metaphysical existence. It will never end. Your emotions, your thoughts, your feelings of wellness, oneness and security.. 5 minutes later being followed by a “cataclysmic” argument with your spouse over how much money you need to take on vacation. Sending your internal vibrations into a whirlwind of unbalanced disruption leaving you with two options; You either dive back into the working state of understanding your current consciousness, and intentionally wrestle with that internal light to rebalance your spectrum.. and take control of those fight or flight thoughts that can and will increase the intensity of the waves that keep you out of balance.

Or, you can allow the “autopilot” to take control. Almost encouraging you to continue fighting.. beckoning you to utter the words you know will cut to the quick. All because you think you know some deep understanding of that person or situation that no one else will understand, and so you batter the situation around like a cat playing with its prey just to watch it suffer. And so you bat around and play with the vibrations and energy of your household as if its an inanimate enemy that will hold no repercussions after you’ve finished. Allowing that sinful nature to come to the surfaces only because you do not have the patience, the empathy, or the understanding to step away and reevaluate your emotions from a different perspective.

Diligence

I thought I knew what it really meant to be diligent, to focus and work hard on something over and over again. Makes you diligent, right? Sort of.. Diligent stemming from the Latin word “diligere” means ‘to love, or take delight in’ or ‘to value or esteem highly’.

It is not easy for us to break away from that “autopilot” response to most things. We have practiced our entire lives on how to respond immediately to all circumstances without breaking away to consider our reactions to them. Simply identify threat, respond accordingly in our best fight or flight fashion, and move on. Never considering how that 33 second response can be the laying of a seed in ours or the oppositions subconscious. What type of seeds do you think are being planted when you are in a fight or flight frame of mind? Any with some forethought to them? Probably not. That is why this practice actually requires the true meaning of the word, Diligence.

In Biblical reference, 2nd Peter 3:14, “So, beloved, since you are looking forward to these things, be diligent and make every effort to be found by Him spotless and blameless, in peace.” Once I understood the true meaning of diligence, I read this differently. Be diligent, or be so in love with this thing that you cannot help, but to make every effort to be found by Him.. That means something totally different than to just work hard and focus on doing the right things.

He tells us to love one another, and to love our spouse the way He loved the church (aka His people, aka whom he gave His life for). And so, it is not an easy undertaking to separate our conscious selves in situations that require us to step away from our “autopilot” responses. But we must be diligent. The only thing that will cool down the heated moments of our internal frustrations is just that, diligence, and love. For our opposition, for our God and His presence, and for ourselves and His light that is a part of us. Let those things be your reminder to help you step away from the heat of an obscure argument. And let His light take over all that is you.

Energy maintenance

Be aware of these things, do not allow the heat of the devil in the short moments of your day to push your hand into the ground as you sew the seeds of energy in your home. You only need to know and be aware of His presence, in these moments, in these vibrations. His Harmony rests above all. It is His vibrations that you feel when you are at peace, when your heart seems to beat more properly. When your mind seems to buzz in a clearer state than that of the opposition. Seeing all the colors of the spectrum instead of just the red or dullness that an obscured vision only allows. Be the one in charge of the energy maintenance in your home. When a moment is being won by the enemy, step away to regather your forces inside. Kindle the flame of His light within you and pour that love into the ground where the enemy thought his flame stood a chance. And let that become your daily practice. Be diligent, become the wave.